Jiwang tak hengat~

he gave me the link to these two songs to download.

alaaaa. macam kekwn bagi links mp3 suh donlot and dengar coz lagu tu best.

yep. he did not dedicate this song to me.

but listening to this makes me want to think he did.

because the lyric is sooooooo menusuk kalbu you know.

*sambil pandang hati yang fragile, aku pun berkata
"...wahai hati, cukup-cukup lah jiwang tak hengat! bertabahlah....!"
fuuuhhh~ kesian si hati kena tengking.

-alamak, blog owner dah ting tong ker?-
heheheh.

*nasib korg la kna layan jiwang aku yg tak hengat nie.lulz*

till then,

 xOxO,
*P*

I Did Say...

i assumed people are not visiting this blog anymore and i am free to express anything in this blog. thus, if anything i said offend anyone i am sorry. and please, no judgement. i'm being true to myself.

i once said to a friend that every muslim girl wants to wed an ustaz. a man that can guide her through life with the right path and ways. yes, i did say that. my mom always say that i need that kind of man in my life. well, i don't deny it.

but, being true to myself, i think i am not really looking for that kind of guy. i am sure it'll be a clash of lifestyles. hik. i am not that religious, but i still embrace Islam. I try my best to follow everything that Allah's has ask all muslims to do. I try to do all the wajib things. Eventhough, sometimes i failed.

going back to my first point, clash of lifestyles, well, fyi, i like to go to cinema, karaoke, shopping, wasting times in shopping malls, restaurants, testing new food. i don't think an ustaz or a pious man would like to do what i do now. he would say "...thats lagha, wasting times in appropriate places...in dark and noisy places...etc". so, if i wed an ustaz, i would not have the opportunity to do things that i like anymore.

second point, the way i dress, an ustaz's wife has her own dressing code to abide. tudung labuh, no make up, no jeans *mana ada bini ustaz pakai jeans.ish*, pakai bj kurung sokmo, cannot lilit2 tudung with fancy accessories. ye lah, perempuan yang baik pakai baju warna pucat, tak boleh pakai warna terang-terang. i certainly can't do that, i dress for confidence and if i don't nicely dress then i'll be the smallest person ever with no sense of confidence AT ALL!

my third point, ustaz-usaz pon taknak kat i. so why bother? huhu.

so, in a conclusion, instead of ustaz, i want an English teacher that has good knowledge of Islam and practice it well, or lecturer or what ever! as long as his English is good and of course, all the positive qualities that i mentioned before in this blog. in other words, ENGLISH TEACHER YANG BERIMAN. kalau xde pon, art teacher pon okeyyy~ haha.

till then, 

 xOxO, 

*P*